my shit

So as most of you Michiganders may know the economy here sucks big time. Because of this I have been out of a job for a few months now and with almost nothing on the horizon I may have to leave the great lakes state. I know that I had planed my escape from Michigan to co-inside with my graduation from EMU but financially it may be an imposable dream. I know that I shouldn’t count my chickens before they hatch but that is why I am not a farmer. Though, if I were I would be able to get my chickens subsidized. If leaving Michigan becomes my only option I will have to do it with much fear. I enjoy things being safe and predictable but if I leave I will have to go down an un-known path. While on this unknown path the option of going to school and finishing will be more than likely out of the question. Then there is my biggest fear, I may have walk this path alone without my dog at my side. I know I can face most of my fears but I don’t know if I can do it alone without him. If anything he has been the one constant in my life for the last 6 months and wile at first I couldn’t handle living with him now I can’t live without him. Really at this point he is the only thing that keeps me going day to day. Waking up and rubbing his tummy, drinking my morning coffee while he shits on the lawn, seeing his joy when we go to the park, barking at any possible intruders, and having someone to snuggle with on chilly nights. It isn’t a lie when I say he is my best friend


Liz

this is what i am thinking

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so there has been some debate on who my dog would be if he was a cartoon dog. what do you all think


Poll #1345585 What cartoon dog does my dog most resemble?
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What cartoon dog does my dog most resemble?

Sorry i dont have any normal pictures of Tuesday that wouldn't affect the results of this pull


Marmaduke


Scooby


Clifford

Goliath

Woot 4 months today. all is going well in dread land here.

Yeah, is been about three months now and i am back in black baby.

so yeah, i got some scaring done. it didn't hurt at all but today SUCKED

Blah blah blah that how things have been is blah. I don't know what to do with myself any more. All i do is just sit around and be bored. I have stuff that i can do but i don't feel like doing it. Oh woe is this cycle of doing nothing. All i do now is work, go home zone out for a few hours then go to bed, wake up go to work, go home zone out and then go to bed. Blah blah blah where did all the people that i used to hang out with all the time go? I don't know. I guess i could go out and meet new people but where is the fun in that? Talking with strange people, blah. I don't know. Blah blah MOTHER FUCKING BLAH. I guess it doesn't help that all the people that i have relationships with don't like to do the things that i like to do and that all the people who like to do the things i like to do i never have any sort of relationship with ( what?) i don't know. Hell i don't even know where i am going with this. I guess it is a rant about nothing. 207 words about nothing. I don't know. I guess i don't know where i am going with my life. Have i given up in life like all my fellow comrades back in Mt, Pleasant have? Well i guess its not giving up its more like have found a way to sustain life. Eat, sleep, work, shit, work, and fuck. Nothing more just that not seeing or trying new things in life just sustaining. I don't know. I kind of hope by coming here to Ann Arbor i have gained enough momentum to get away from the soulless existence that my friends from high school are living. In a town that is/has been swallowed up corporate brothels where for the prise of your sole you can you can feel like a true American after getting a lap dance from some cheep plastic Wal-mart brand couch that was made across the world in a factory in China. Then after your ten minutes is up you can go back to work for the your corporate pimp so after your shift you can get another lap dance from the High Definition dvd player that to spent your life stocking in the rows and rows and rows of consumer whores for your fellow slaves. I dont know. I guess since i have rejected the idea of being a sex slave for a corporate pimp that makes me a prude. And now because of my prudish nature i have gone out and at lest started to crawl out beneath the musty old carpet of corporate greed and worker/consumer prostitution that was tossed upon this nation so some nasty old pig fucker could be on fucking top. I am sorry guys i guess like i seem like an arrogant prick that has nothing better to do other than talk about all i have done (note to some not better than you just more) because i have gotten out of the bubble i have seen the light i have met up with some amazing people. People with different thoughts and dreams then the ones that we all had. I am still a stranger in a strange land but i am slowly step by step day by day becoming a part of this strange community far away from all of you. I still love you all. I miss the good old days of skipping school and spending a nice sunny day sitting under that train tracks or just spending a few hours at Chef drinking coffee. Those WERE AND WILL ALWAYS BE THE BEST DAYS OF MY LIFE. With you all the days where we didnt have to worry about going to work or children. I guess thats the problem with leaving home when you go back its not the same and will never be the same. I dont know, i guess We all be grown ups but we are all still growing up. I dont know. My thought have been going crazy and i guess i am just trying to find some sort of inner peace. I guess this if good ranting getting it out on the table so i can take nice good long look at everything and try and decide where to go from here. But i guess that a part of going off into the unknown not knowing what lays in front of you. 769 words. Hee i guess thats what i needed blah now i hope i can get some sleep so i can wake up and put my pants on one leg at a time and head off down the rode. Don't worry about me. This isn't some sort of suicidal/mass murder rant. If it were it would be a lot more crazy than this is . this is just a way to let out some of the things that have been welling inside of me.

Peace

Liz <8,,)~

oh debs so empty. this summer is going to suck

So it is looking like i am going back home for the first week of May and i am hoping to do some couch surfing while i am there because i am just going to be a bum (with money for beer) YEAH. I just would like to re-kindle old friendships because this rich Bourgeoisie fucktard town is starting to get to me and i need to get back to my roots

Today i found out the lady who comes by our house sometimes to collect our cans (Kim) died last night. I am going to miss her, she was so freaking sweet.

So when i got home tonight from work one of my fellow house mates told me about this e-mail that the food steward sent to the house. if you are not a co-oper the food steward is the person that goes out and buys food for the house every week with house money. well upon hearing about the content of the e-mail i just has to see for myself. here is the e-mail
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To: Debs house 06-07
Subject: If you want to eat I suggest you read this.
Body:
In response to the collapse of the kitchen sink I have resorted to
using my own dishes. That is until someone stole my motherfucking
parrot cup off of my motherfucking shelf that has my motherfucking name
on it. If it is not returned immediately there will be serious
repercussions.
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another one of my fellow co-oper who felt the need to help with finding the missing cup sent out another e-mail to the house
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To: Debs House 06-07
Subject: Please help return (Name Removed) Dish
Body:
Hello Debsters,
The last thing that we want in the house is an angry food steward.
Please return (name removed) her parrot cup. You might have unknowngily taken it
your room thinking that it was a guff dish. If you are afraid to return
the dish to (name removed) yourself, you can return it to me and I will give it
to (name removed) with total confidentiality for you.
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man i thought that this was so freaking sweet of my fellow co-oper to help out to find her cup. i bet if someone sent out an e-mail like this when someone stole my Digital camera or when another one of my fellow co-opers i-Pod was stolen it would have been returned in no time. though, no one did and my camera and the i-pod are still missing. dispite the loss of my $100 camera with no help from my house i still felt like doing what any co-oper would do and i decided to hep her out.
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To: (name removed)
Subject: RE: If you want to eat I suggest you read this.
Body:
If you to busy sulking over the loss of your cup i am more than willing to go out and do the shopping. Please let me know
Love Liz
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sometime later that night i was talking about the missing cup to one of my house mates. well i had a bit to drink so i was talking a bit loud about it. i guess that she over heard me and came out and told us that it was all a joke. man did i have egg on my face i thought that this was something serous. well she did the right thing and told the whole house what was going on
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To: Debs House 06-07
Subject: sincere apologies for all
Body:
So very sorry. I will never attempt to joke again. Thank you liz for
your offer. I promise to keep all e-mails explicit and truthful from
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man i am so happy everything worked out in the end with this joke among hose mates. for a second i thought that this was serous
now on.

Yeah. i got a new tattoo

Yeah , i am bored and i just got some new fish so i am going to list all the fish that i have. To make things interesting i am going to post pictures to show you all what they look like. Please note that some ass hat stole my camera so i am just using stock photos
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Also, i have no clue what to name my new fish hell i still haven't named my white fantail any ideas?

well i had a hard time taking good pictures of my new tank tonight so made a movie. it looks a little bare at the moment because i just went form a 20 to a 55

As some of you may know i went to the Anti-war protest in Washington D.C. This weekend. So here is some stuff from that

Washington Post

Student Protesters, Fighting Image of Apathy, Call for a Cohesive Movement
Student Activists Call for Peace, a Cohesive Movement at U.S. Colleges
By Megan Greenwell
Washington Post Staff Writer
Sunday, January 28, 2007; Page A08
As the bulk of war protesters chanted "this is what democracy looks like" on the Mall yesterday, a few hundred gathered separately on the south edge of the Mall.
Members of the College Democrats of America mingled with the more radical Students for a Democratic Society and the Communist Youth Movement. Many held signs proclaiming themselves "another future leader against the war." Some danced. Some clapped. Others passed around a joint. Disparate in their affiliations, they were united in their chants: "College, not combat."

Since the war began nearly four years ago, many Vietnam-era antiwar activists have publicly lamented what they see as apathy among today's college students. They wonder whether the absence of a draft and a culture of pop music and reality television have distracted young people from civic responsibilities.
But among the hundreds of students on the Mall yesterday, dozens of whom drove all night to get to Washington for the protest, the prevailing sentiment was that their generation had been unfairly maligned and that the antiwar movement is growing stronger every day.
"I do think we're misrepresented as being lazy, ignorant and unaware of current events," said Sarah Searle, 19, a sophomore at the University of Virginia. "There's no huge movement going on like during Vietnam, but that doesn't mean we're apathetic."
The students at yesterday's protest noted that their efforts have not had the iconic touchstones of the late 1960s and early 1970s, when shootings at Kent State and the student takeover at Columbia University stirred U.S. consciousness. Still, there are signs, they said, of a building resistance to the war in Iraq and other U.S. foreign policy initiatives.
"Whenever you have inequality dragging on the way it is now, that's always resulted at some point in a rise in mass resistance," said David Judd, a Columbia junior who celebrated his 21st birthday yesterday by traveling with 150 classmates to Washington for the protest. "Obviously, that's not going to happen tomorrow, but there's good reason to believe that at some point it will, and the work that we do beforehand in preparing for that and getting people involved in activism is important."
Many students mentioned the case of Ehren Watada -- the U.S. Army lieutenant facing a court martial for refusing to deploy to Iraq -- as an important step in building a cohesive antiwar movement. Watada's father spoke from the main stage at the protest while student speakers at a side rally organized by the Campus Antiwar Network hailed the young man as a hero and said the war will not end until other soldiers make the same decision.
Mark Rudd, the 1960s radical who gained notoriety as the leader of the Columbia protests and as a member of the revolutionary group the Weathermen, said he has noticed increased antiwar activity among college students over the past year, which he attributed in part to Watada's public refusal to deploy in June. Students for a Democratic Society, the largest student activist group during Vietnam, has reemerged, holding its first convention since 1969 last year and gaining a presence on a growing number of college campuses.
"There's been a 35-year break where there hasn't been a mass movement, so students haven't had a natural model for how to do it," Rudd said, laying some of the blame on the Weathermen for breaking apart the larger student movement in the push to be more radical. "I hope they'll learn from our shameful history and learn how not to screw things up like we did."
Students agreed that ending the war will require building a coalition across political lines. University of Maryland senior Alan Wright, 21, said political moderates have been alienated from the antiwar movement by radicals.
"We might all be against the war, but there's no consensus about what we should do now," Wright said. "If we can all come together, we will be able to have more of an impact."

D.C Indy media
Radical Youth Contingent and Students for a Democratic Society March Overview
Author
Mike Erwin
Date Created
28 Jan 2007
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28 Jan 2007 02:18:50 PM


I'm sure others will provide more photos, audio, video, and commentary. I'll concentrate on the march route, march size, and other stuff that doesn't usually get written down.
Radical Youth Contingent and Students for a Democratic Society March Overview

J27 2007

Mike Erwin

I'm sure others will provide more photos, audio, video, and commentary. I'll concentrate on the march route, march size, and other stuff that doesn't usually get written down.

The Students for a Democratic Society (SDS) called for a Radical Youth Contingent (RYC) to assemble at Dupont Circle by 11:00 on the 27th. About 170 protesters assembled at Dupont Circle; about 40 cops assembled in the immediate area. The latter included 2 squads of bike cops, 2 squads of motorcycle cops, and various police cars.

The RYC left Dupont Circle at 10:54 and generally followed Massachusetts to 7th with certain detours to the north, snarling traffic and avoiding police. At one point, the bloc was about 2 lanes wide and 150 meters long, probably still with about 170 people.

(In detail, the RYC followed Massachusetts to Corregidor, and turned left, followed Corregidor to N and turned right, followed N to Vermont and turned right, followed Vermont to Massachusetts and turned left, followed Massachusetts to 13th, briefly halted and formed up, and turned left. The RYC followed 13th to M, and turned right, followed M to 12th and turned right, followed 12th to Massachusetts and turned left, followed Massachusetts to Mount Vernon and turned left, followed Mount Vernon to New York and turned right.)

The RYC followed 7th to the Mall. Many people joined the bloc from the sidewalks, and the march was 3 lanes wide and 170 meters long, probably growing to about 300 people given the earlier estimate. Another larger march joined the March from Pennsylvania from the west and the combined group was 6 lanes wide and well over 170 meters long (since the tail, if not most, of the second march, was hidden by the turn).

The RYC crossed Constitution Avenue about 12:41, later for the back of the march, and passed through the Mall. Many of the people who had joined from the sidewalks went into the crowds on the mall, and other people joined from the crowds on the mall. The RYC (so reinforced) crossed Independence and was 5 1/2 lanes wide and 100 meters long, probably back to very nearly 300 people given the first estimate.

The RYC followed 7th to Maryland and turned left, followed Maryland to 3rd, faced a line of police at 12:58 and turned left, and followed 3rd to Jefferson. The Capitol Police rushed to drive people from the lawn east of 3rd; the rest of the RYC and some of the crowd on the mall moved up to prevent the police from attacking or arresting anyone.

The Capitol Police were massively outnumbered and badly outflanked, so they withdrew behind the Reflecting Pool leaving some of their equipment behind. The protesters, now well-mixed between the RYC and others who had arrived from the mall, moved up to the reflecting pool.

The RYC was more-or-less dissolving into the larger crowd, perhaps 600 people here (having gone from about 3/4 in black to about 1/2 in black). There was a large SDS contingent (probably including some from the mall crowd - the SDS had two official meeting points) and several other anti-authoritarian/libertarian socialist contingents working together, as well as many other groups.

Some of those who had moved up, to the south of the RYC, moved into the gap between Maryland Avenue and the Reflecting Pool, which the police (whether for lack of time or lack of manpower) had not covered. The rest of the people in the larger group gradually followed, some on their own, some in groups as large as 100. Again and again, the protesters outflanked the police; again and again, the police fell back. By about 1:10 the police had retreated and the protesters had advanced to the Capitol steps. There was no fighting.

"Stop the funding, stop the war! What the hell is Congress for?"

More protesters trickled in over the next half-hour, so that about 1,000 people assembled west of the Capitol by about 1:40.

The SDS formed together and marched to the south entrance of the Capitol. At this point, the Capitol Police withdrew from 3rd and Pennsylvania. Soon there was a lively protest south of the Capitol, but there was little left west of the Capitol, and people were tricking from the Capitol to the mall as fast as they were trickling in from the Mall to the Capitol.

The SDS withdrew from the Capitol to 3rd and Jefferson at 1:58, and joined the UFPJ march, but left from 3rd and Madison at 2:54.

"SDS to the right! Literally, not figuratively!"

The SDS met and discussed their options east of 3rd and returned to the Capitol at 3:05. There were still many other protesters up there.

I lost track of the SDS's movements sometime later.
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An Addendum on March Pacing

The times depend on multiple clocks so the distance/time figures are not entirely trustworthy. The UFPJ march, as far as I was there, averaged 0.2 km/h for 1 hour; the RYC march, from Dupont Circle to 3rd and Maryland, averaged 2.1 km/h for 2 hours; I usually walk 6.4 km/h for longer walks on flat ground, and others probably have similar paces. It seems that the larger the group, the slower it moves. Can anyone suggest ways to avoid this problem?

Link so you can see the pix and stuff http://dc.indymedia.org/newswire/display/137584/index.php

also someone has put together a bunch of pictures from the protest. Keep checking back at this one because there should be more pix to come

http://s77.photobucket.com/albums/j69/anonymousthis/J27-07-DC/

all and all it was good fun

What the hell is wrong with my family? They don’t give a shit about how I am doing. I cant remember the last time that they called to see how I was. Well I guess calling to whish me a merry X-mass and that they are having a blast while I sit alone at home with only my rats and the radio to keep me company is their way. I guess that is their way pretending that all is good in Liz world so they can keep up the fantasy that I am a wonderful hard working daughter/sister and not some stupid, fat, ugly person wallowing in the pool of self loathing. But I guess that’s a part of living the dream life. you just have to act like there is nothing wrong and keep on driving through the ghetto in your H3 drinking your 7$ coffee and talking on your cell phone until you can get to the Mall so you can go and buy a sofa from Pottery Barn that was made by starving kinds in China and impress your friends with your sense of style when you invite them over to your suburban kingdom where Blacks and Mexicans are only allowed if they are cleaning you shit stained royal throne or cutting the grass (but only after you have hidden you valuables because you know that how all those people are it’s genetic for them to be the unsavory people of the wonderful world and not a because of society ) for coffee. I bet if I dropped out of school and moved to a different state they wouldn’t know for two or three months or until I was thrown in jail for camping out in a public park. But after that they would go on with their happy lives and pinch out another golden log that dose not stink but dose leave a souvenir for Consuela to clean up when she is done folding your underpants.

Well yeah I guess that this makes me selfish

OMFG THE HEAT WORKS IN MY ROOM NOW!!! ABOUT FUCKING TIME

Ok this is what’s going on in Three minutes
*Melissa are you dead? Its been a long time since you have been online
*also it’s a girl
*I have a mouse now
*I hate working with that stupid frat boy at work
*the stupid frat boy made work shitty today
* aww Nat your so precess
* why am I still in school
* I am very drunk at the moment
* I don’t want to go home this X-mass
* wow Jake Fucking wow
*the girls need water (will be fixed after I am done with this smoke)
*I Want to quit Pizza Bobs
* I need to get some Happy Pills

Well the smoke is almost done if you have any Questions just leave a comment